❤cheesh.

2009-09-23T19:55:00.002+08:00

ohh i realised blogger is back to normal again, awesome.(=
but either way, i am moving, or rather i've moved to lj.
you can ask for the new url if you want, thanks(=

2009-08-13T22:43:00.004+08:00

我的声音在笑泪在飙.

im trying hard not to collapse, but im hating this. i seriously am.

2009-08-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

23.
now im seriously wondering if im going to make it.
but no i shant wonder anymore.
i dont have the time to.
i need to mug like a true blue mugger.
mug cheeshan mug.

2009-08-08T22:08:00.003+08:00

I LOVE HCBAND!<33

well yeah, so it was farewell today and its also the day we officially become part of the hcband alumni hahaha. that aside, a bigbig thankyou goes out to our beloved juniors for all the time and effort put in to do up the video and our presents(= and we'll really really miss you guys.

my journey with hcband has been a truly fulfilling one, one with lots of joy and laughter as well. credits go to the awesome section definitely, seniors batchmates and juniors. i guess i wouldnt have survived in band without all of you.

when we first joined hcband as j1s, we depended alot on our seniors. like all the high notes, all the bars-counting and stuff. and they were honestly great, as seniors and as friends. and we were a very bonded section, so bonded that we cried after capriccio or sth cause the seniors were stepping down.

after they left, we were on our own. ohh wait, i think by then edwin and jason joined us already hahaha. we thought band life would be super boring without the seniors, but i figured we were wrong. not that we didnt love our seniors anymore, just that we welcomed a group of lovely juniors.

syf was a trying period for all of us, having to juggle other commitments apart from band. but the strong section spirit and sheer determination kept us going and the feeling of playing on stage with them is one that i'll never forget.

we used to grumble about morning assemblies (esp mondays), but suddenly there is this tinge of emptiness every morning, since we're not required to play anymore. its like kind of weird, to be sitting at the class bench instead of in the band room. well life will never be the same without band i suppose.

finally, thankyou batchmates for all the fun during band practs. thankyou j2 horns for always being there and for being my pillars of strength and support all these while. thankyou junior horns, for being the best juniors one can ever have.

♥hcHORNS.

2009-08-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

well its either my tablet is weird or blogger is weird. ahh whatever it is.

so yes, 9months have passed so so quickly. i can vividly remember every single thing which happened and it all felt like yesterday. well i suppose 2oo9 is passing way too fast. yeah, and i do miss you very very much.

2009-07-27T18:51:00.001+08:00

mugmugmug. life is not that bad with all the mugging, i guess im starting to get used to it(= yayy, i may just be able to make it eventually. way to go bff, you know you want to prove others wrong. jiayou too jingyi, though im a purple freak, i always thought a black calculator looks nicer=P

oh, idk if i've mentioned it before, but i hate people who dao my smses, esp when i obviously am asking a question. yeah.

on a separate note, WOW. suddenly im involved in all these, like o.O seriously, what else can i do other than roll my eyes=_=

2009-07-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

so a series of events had to happen today. how nice.

to sum up the day, i was rather disturbed, i was quite upset. now i am feeling terribly awful.

2009-07-21T19:38:00.002+08:00

我遇到了瓶颈.
yeah, just like the supply bottleneck.

oh a happier note, family gathering was awesome. sorry for being late though. cause of some cool people who wanted to go for an intellectual scholarship fair but ended up marching to marina to catch harrypotter=_= but it was not bad, though a little draggy at parts. yeah back to the point, life is good with family gatherings cause you know you will only get this amount of joy and laughter once in every 3weeks. and this is the force that keeps me going, other than lilyphoajingyi (yes my newfound friend), auntie and some others. so yupp, life seems unpromising at the moment, but cheers to the great bunch of people i hold dear nevertheless!=D

2009-07-18T21:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY JINGYILIU!=D
well yeah, not today but still, sama sama larh. did her present with lily ystd, it was crazyyy. but im glad it turned out rather nice, yayy(= thanks lily!
then it was bugis with them today, cheers to retail therapy! yeah, havent been out in a long while, so the feeling of spending money was great hahaha. shared a lot of latest gossips and random stuff along the way, yayy life is good=D

meeting jingyi again tmr for scholarship fair. rarrr scholarshipscholarship againn. and tt means im gng to see jingyi everyday this week, plus the 5days in the coming week, that adds up to 12 hahaha. no, dont call us lian3 ti3 ying1 thanks=_='

/drifting apart, i suppose.

2009-07-15T22:27:00.003+08:00

scholarship scholarship scholarship. so yeah, that was the highlight of the day i guess. good and bad, inspired and pressurised.
makes me wonder what my priorities are all of a sudden. is it really Alevelsscholarshipuniversities, or just a simple, happy life? well then you will say, 'you need a good job with a good pay in order to lead a happy life'. true enough. but i dont want to lose some things along the way. things like friends. yeah, somehow i started to wonder what will happen after we all graduate. its like a total different thing from secondarysch. i see alot of friends drifting apart, and its rather sad. i mean friends who used to be so close, they just turn into mere aquaintances after a while. things like family too. gor will be going back to his hostel for his new school year next month, which means i wont see much of him again. then i'll have to mug alone at nights. yeah, tts very sad. and then smallgor will be starting his school as well, that is double sadness=( cousins as well. i suppose we wont meet up as often too. wah thats the ultimate.

well on a lighter note, my brother just shared a random website he learnt about during class today. its on funeral packages, available for all religions if im not wrong. then you can decide on the length of the funeral, the number of priests you want and all. like wow, im amazed honestly. and im quite tickled by the name of the site. shant advertise here hehh.

2009-07-14T22:17:00.002+08:00

i figured shopping does help in lifting moods(=

went to my favourite artsy artfriend with lily this afternoon to get decent materials for peeling friend's present hehh. if i were to trust our artistic abilities, i think it'll turn out really nice. but hmmmm, we shall see(= went on to get mich's present tooo, burning an even bigger hole. yes, worse than my burnt feet. but if you think money is my everything, then nononooo, you're wrong. cause the next moment we just marched into j.co hahaha. yeah, food>>>>>>>>>>>manymany things((= i realised i havent had donuts in a longg while, im so deprived. so yupp, donuts were awesome<3

talked about stuff, gossiped as well which is nothing unusual anyway. life is great with friends hehh, well at least for now. urm no not tt my friends will turn bad or sth, but yeah you know.

a big thankyou to those who listened to all the rants, i reallyreally appreciate it alot((=

2009-07-13T22:22:00.003+08:00

hi cheeshan, its time you stop falling short of expectations.

such a disappointment. my mum is starting to lower her expectations of me i think. not very encouraging ohno.

im starting to despise myself tsk. im trying hard, or at least i think so. alright maybe i havent tried hard enough.

i want to be someone with high EQ. so i've got them all locked up.

2009-07-12T20:00:00.003+08:00

this is crazy. my feet look as though they got caught in a fire. and i cant comb properly cause my burnt neck will be scratched. shows how long i havent been out in the sun ehh, and yeah, me not ns boy. i hope i can walk properly tmr hahaha, and warning: step on my foot and you dieeeeee.

cheers to the frisbee people for the awesome job done anyway!=D yeah, saw alot of team spirit and effort put in ystd, or rather throughout this whole period. i must say they're truly a bunch of determined people, a bunch of people who will stick together no matter what happens. which is good of course, for teamspirit is what you need to overcome all the obstacles. congratulations once again!(=

i dont want to imagine what'll happen tmr when papers start coming back, but i pray for the best. and i think i let mstan down, the feeling is terribly awful. time to put in 1000% from tmr onwards.

2009-07-10T18:23:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE YINGMEI CHYEEEEEEEE!<333

7weeks to prelims. or is it 6, im not too sure. so yeah, time to start mugging all over again, or maybe i shouldnt have stopped mugging in the first place. no comments about results as of now, but a big sorry to those ive disappointed. i'll try even harder, i hope i wont fall short of expectations anymore.

thankyou lily, for the long one this afternoon. i guess talking to her always helps, because she chases all the dark clouds away(= and we figured how exams have shaped us into people who either have very high or very low EQ. im glad that i know what to do and say at the right time. for that, i thank crescent. talked about other stuff as well, and we sat down to think about the happy things which happened these 2years. i would say things have not been too bad, and even when things were tough, they taught us how to manange pressure and stay strong. being in here has actually bonded the crescentians, like angelia and us. its funny how we used to be in the same class back then but havent talked as much as we are doing now. well for me i guess the best thing tt happened to me in hc up till now is still smallgor. yeah i think i said it before, but no harm saying again hehh. and i cant believe lily and i actually spent like half an hour talking about my brothers hahaha. but i must agree with whatever lily said hehh(=

jiayou kids! may the hwachong flag fly high at sengkang fields tmr!=D

2009-07-03T16:01:00.004+08:00

tgif? ohwell, kind of.
so first week of blocks went by, leaving me with a throbbing headache now mehh. rather demoralising as of now, but somehow it does motivate people to study harder right? idk, maybe im just in self-denial, we shall wait till the results are released. and see how i'll blackface the whole world again mehh.
well i guess the only thing to do now is to try and save my sciences, after the intimidating paper3s. so yeah, 3days to prevent getting unwanted attention from tanks, 4days to not disappoint mstan. and to do a few people proud, or rather not throw their faces.

on a slightly related note, my brother said something like,'preparing for jc exams is very stressful, uni seems better', or something along tt line. i was quite surprised to hear tt coming from him actually. but im glad he does acknowledge the fact tt im trying hard, thanks a million((=

hmmm, i shall attempt to make next week's papers more encouraging now. before tt, i hope both gors are doing fine, wherever they are. have fun and stay cheery!<3

/edit. i hate it when this happens, i get so worried till i become extremely pissed off.

2009-06-30T19:22:00.002+08:00

断了的弦再怎么连,
我的感觉你已听不见.

2009-06-25T20:37:00.003+08:00

hmm. how do you know if you're mugging alot, or have exceeded your limits?
keeping some stuffs somewhere else, those who know will know.

2009-06-24T22:34:00.002+08:00

something is happening in the family, and it seems like we may just drift apart in the near future. ohwell, i guess we all saw this coming, especially after the loss of our focal point. its been bothering me since this morning, and this feeling is really awful. perhaps we are too close, hence the thought of not meeting up as often or poorer turnouts is quite demoralising. and we know we need one another to keep us going, to stay strong and all. the departure of grandmama made us even more bonded and stronger than before, but im afraid this may not last. well we'll still have our regular gatherings, but with lesser people and maybe a different kind of atmosphere, things just wont seem right hmm. i do hope we'll stay this way forever, and i love you guys alot alot<3

i cant imagine myself still crying over the loss of my grandmother,
but i guess thats how close we were.

2009-06-20T21:44:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SISTER!<3333333333333
despite the failed surprise (as always) cause of the classic comment, i hope you enjoyed sunday as much as we did! and dont worry about being 1year older, cause its hard to grow old and too mature with a bunch of crazy people around you!=D

on a separate note, hi lily! hahaha anw i've always thought its sugar level is quite high, at least it saved me quite a number of times hehh=P

on a separateseparate note, thankyou smallgor!=D

2009-06-17T18:54:00.001+08:00

ohmann, 3rd week of holidays is coming to an endddd.
and i think im not prepared for blocks, rarr this is so scaryyyy.

2009-06-08T22:57:00.002+08:00

trip back home was awesome. and contrary to popular belief, no steamboat this time round, but seafood instead=DD yeah great food great company as usual, lifes great(=
topic this time round was on children and their aspirations. my cousin got into the state team for handball but his mum doesnt allow cause she feels that studies is more impt and by playing for the state he'll screw up his studies. but another uncle of mine thinks tt its good to let him pursue his dreams and give him freedom to do what he wants, so they started 'debating' abt this whole thing, all the way till2+am=/ and we just sat and listened, and i realised my parents are the only ones who both feel tt studies is of utmost importance and we shld just ignore things like passion because it wont get you anywhere, unlike my other uncles/aunts, for which their spouses and them share differing views. well i guess now i know why my parents want both of us to excel and not focus so much on non-academic stuff. they dont really approve of my other commitments all these while, like band and mpa and other stuff back in crescent. to them its like a waste of time maybe. well now i know.

on a separate note, does being 18 mean having the ability to make decisions independently. im quite lost now, maybe i shld sleep and toss a coin tmr or sth.

2009-06-01T23:08:00.003+08:00

i just figured i didnt blog abt arts fest=/
yeah, so artsfest, our last official event together, as a section, as a band.
well we didnt play as well compared to syf, but i thought it was a great performance nevertheless(= ohh and during the chorale part, i looked at leng and he was doing something to his face. it looked as though he was wiping his tears away hahaha. idk if he really was doing tt, but i was tearing alr. yes on stage, halfway through the piece.
i dont want to leaveeeeee! took random photos as usual, and i really like this one:

now now, dont you think this is a super niceeee jumpshot! well at least i think so((=
cheers to the awesome bunch!<3

2009-05-31T19:16:00.002+08:00

parents' day dinner last night was rather successful i guess, so tts not bad(= it felt great to see all the ahmas and ahgongs laughing so happily and participating in all the games enthusiastically. i really hope they'll stay happy and healthy=)

and yeah, thought of my own grandmama. maybe i dont show it or tell anyone abt this anymore, but i reallyreally do miss her alot. it still seems as though she just left us ystd or sth. hmmmmmmm.

2009-05-29T18:44:00.002+08:00

todays the last day of sem1. but things didnt turn out as well as it was supposed to. okay maybe except tt i passed my half-prepared econs essay.
spent breaks rushing between fishtank and library for gp stuff due to miscomm. and yeah got quite angsty and pissed. wasnt anyone's fault larh, just tt i cant stand rushing out stuff last minute. and since gp was the last lesson of the day, my mood was like tt throughout the day. sorry to those i blackfaced, i still hope tt you guys will have a great holiday, amidst all the crazy mugging(=

sorry for being a terrible meimei, for not being able to help in times of need. i know you're disappointed, and i know im useless=/

2009-05-26T20:10:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KANGJIEEEE!=D
hmmm, wherever you are(=

2009-05-25T19:20:00.002+08:00

"有没有那麽一个明天
重头过一遍
让我再次感受曾挥霍的昨天"

so this week is the last week of the term, again. and soon, everything, good or bad, will be all over.
as i was walking past the central plaza this morning, i looked around me and figured tt a few more months later, i wont be spending more than 1/2 of my time in this school. a few weeks ago, i was still ranting abt how 2/3 of my everyday was spent in there. but now, a few weeks later, i realise tt somehow, it'll be hard to say goodbye.

back to saturday, was really glad to see tingwei and gor. yeah, havent seen them in a while, havent talked to them either (tingwei at least). and no, no trouble at all kay, so no worries=) welll, i sort of miss last year a little, when the seniors were still around. it was obviously more carefree being juniors, for you could rely on them and seek help from them almost always. but yeah, we'll all grow up and move on i guess.

"有没有那麽一种永远
永远不改变
拥抱过的美丽都再也不破碎"

2009-05-24T13:29:00.002+08:00

dance night was alright, apologies to jingyi for making her wait and end up not getting the better seats though=/

h3 is rubbish. rarrr.

2009-05-14T20:30:00.003+08:00

yesyes, another of my masterpiece hehh.
this is for my crazily noisily superb section, i love you all!=D

2009-05-11T23:02:00.007+08:00

wheeeeee! just koped syf photos from nutcase's blog hahaha and yes, below will be a full spam of photos! (well not alot actually hehh)

1/2 horns at 0800hr (after i slit my finger=_=)

horns (old+new) plus lewis outside trcc!=D

with 'macho' leng after syf!=)

happy family!=D (without the cat=/)

my favourite section photo!<333

batch`o8o9!=D

teamHC`2009. we're the gold<3

okay, on to something else. did i ever mention tt i have a cool littlegor hahahaa. i think i did but i shall just say moreeee=) idk, but suddenly i feel like talking abt him hehh. yeah, its really nice to have elder brothers to cheer you up when you're down, to listen to all your rubbish and simply to be there. so ive collected a new brother last year aka littlegor who is super awesome=D and he is really zai cause he entered a cool faculty (he repeated n times) and he is going to get a fab job in future hohohohhhh=DD actl idk why i feel like saying all these suddenly, i think its cause there wasnt any phonecall on my way home at 9plus just now mehhh. ohwelll, littlegor ftw!<3

on a separate note, there was jts today at sakura. let me elaborate, its YIOCHUKANG's sakura=_=' yes, 40minutes of train ride, totally killed me i swear. but food was good hahaha, so compensated a little. company was great, so offsetted everything i guess hahaha. yes, im starting to love my class more and moreee!=D

2009-05-07T20:25:00.010+08:00

theGOLDDDband<3

we went up full of smiles and confidence, we played like it was our last performance, we sang and touched many, we ended the last note together as one, we walked down the stage with pride.

and there it was, gold. yeah, no honours if you're wondering. idk, maybe i felt tt we deserve something better. we wanted to get tt honours badly, for mrleng, for our seniors and for ourselves. somehow there was just this teeny weeny bit of disappointment.

but its okay, for we enjoyed what we played and we gave our best on stage that morning. honours or not, it doesnt really matter anymore, because we played like one. all the late night pracs, ulcers and cracked lips, dozing-off-during-lessons were all worthwhile. and looking back at 18th april's exchange, we really improved tremendously, from a no-pulse poor-intonation band to a technically-good band with awesome expression and shape in our music. im truly proud to be a part of this team of musicians.

heard the recording ystd and it was so touching i teared. the sound, the tone and the emotions, really amazing. few weeks back, i'd never have imagined tt to be our music. but hey, im glad we did it(= comments on bandfusion were rather heartwarming, things like, 'after hearing sa, vj and hc, i will not judge the bands by the medals they get' or sth along tt line. and the ones on the singing part, this random guy was quite surprised tt we got all the chords in tune and all hahaha. well, at least the 1+hour getting terrorised by mrgoh paid off! liangsai said he saw the judges looking up almost immediately when we started the chorale hehh, how i wish i saw tt too(=

life without band is really weird. explains why im so free on a saturday morning=/ carried instruments back to college with irene ystd and when we were busy packing the blazers and all, i thought,'in a few weeks' time, i wont be coming here on a almost-daily basis anymore' yeah, sadddd. speaking of which, after we got our results on thursday, liangsai and his team of people started playing random pieces as usual. the best part was, they played auld lang syne=_= and so i cried. cried even more when chai hugged me. rarrr, the feeling of parting is always so sad, esp when you're super close to these people. quote nutcase,'i love you all, i feel so close to you all' hahaha funny when you hear her say(shall post the video up someday=P), but its really true honestly.

photos will come later after nutcase is done uploading. as of now, thankyou so much my awesome possum horn section! yes we know we are the noisiest section in the band, we pour acid on one another and niao one another each and every day etcetc, but we are the most bonded section im sure! its nice to come into college bandroom each morning to see >half the people there belonging to the hornsection, and its very encouraging to always have full attendance in our section(= and the fact tt i saw only irene ystd was really weird, like super emptyyyy. suddenly i want to have syf all over again=/ but anyhow, thankyou chai irene nut edwin jason ziyan benja, for all the joy and love! thankyou chai too, for being really understanding towards my h3 and mpa and all. thankyou amanda too, for all the support! ohh and lewis! yeah, i hope he is not upset over what leng said, cause we really think we improved alot under him! so thankyou lewis!=D and noad tooo of course(=

many thanks to all who texted on 7th's morning, if my reply was super short, im very sorry cause we were all in a rush. but i do thank all of you for tt! thankyou caining for coming down too and for having so much faith in us! thankyou hcband for all the funny and fun times (which is all the time basically) and for all the smiles and optimisim when things didnt look good(= finally, thankyou mrleng! yes younghandsomemacho leng hahahah if he insists, for not giving up on us after we malu-ed him on exchange day.

[cheeshan x3 hcband!]

2009-05-04T21:52:00.002+08:00

18!
yeah legal now, but very old, i know. i guess its more of being matured and being someone who is responsible for her own actions and must be able to make the right choices.
that aside, many thanks to those who remembered!
the pleasant surprise from besties on saturday, thankyou so much and congratulations on the successful attempt! i love you guys alot alot=D
hcHORNS ystd for the late lunch and for spending so much time on the wallet contents, i appreciate it very much! and we'll ace syf together!<33
6f, for the super enthu birthday song during gp and for wishing once in a while throughout the day. and zhongsheng for being the earliest to wish me hahaha=D
hcband, for making practice today a really fun and enjoyable one. and yes for the bday song after pract!=D
littlegor, for remembering! hahaha, and for making me feel appreciated ( blood-related or not, it doesnt really matter yeah(= ). ohh and for calling despite being super tired. thankyou so much, and i do miss you alot, esp when the call lasted for only 20minutes?!hehh, thanks gor!<333
lily, for the big square thing tt'll always remind me of you and our spastic crescent clique! thankyou for always being there, and theres nothing much to say since its all inside the heart<33
jingyi, for the unmetal case hahaha. yeah im gng to give up on the metal one soon! and to put it simply, thankyou for being in hwach and 6f=D
mich, for coming for h3 despite being the only one. for the purple dress hahahah, its so you!=D

and other people: BELL!, leezy, yingjie, cheeyang, sicheng, janice, xinliang, jeanne, wenjun, emi, joycetan, joycelyn, yixiao, howard, shoukee, marcuslincoln (hahaha yes, very nice of them)...

yeah, tts o4o5o9 for me, and 3more days to syf! JIAYOU BAND!
finally, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISABELLA LIN!<3333

2009-05-01T20:34:00.003+08:00

happy labour day all!=D
band pract ystd was crazily fun. okay, maybe for the crazy horn section only hahaha. it started with us (chai irene edwin me) talking randomly in the sideroom. then idk what got into irene, she combed her hair into centre-parting and laughed at herself for looking retarded. the thing was, her laughter was in a crescendo-like manner, it was supersuper contagious tt all of us burst out laughing too. and the laughter never stopped till like 5minutes later, cause chai couldnt stop laughing and when irene saw tt she started laughing her crescendo-like way again and got us all cracked up. yeah and the cycle repeated till benja came in. before tt we recorded irene's laughter, so we got him to guess whose laughter tt was hahaha. and zongxian was so amused hahaha, his laughter is super funny too! hahahah our section is just crazy, and we even wanted to put irene's laughter as our ringtones. i bet it'll scare the hell out of everyone hahahah.
okay back to actual band pract. we did good i thought, or rather we all thought. sounding better each day and all hehh. yeah man, i think we're so going to make it this time round, to the top even. yayy yayy, lets go hcband!=D
lunched with chongers at swensens this afternoon, talked abt random stuff as usual. but i thought something was missing, like the atmosphere? neh idk, maybe its just me. and then went around singapore in search for syf stuff. brasbasah's artfriend for cheeshanish messages, candyempire with liwei for cool yet ex candies, tiong to develop photos. ohh the stupid thing was, i took the wrong train can you believe it. i happily went into the train at tiong and started to look at the new circle line until the woman said, 'outram park interchange'. i was like O.O hahaha, and realised i took the one in the opposite direction=_=' yeah, tts what you get for not going out in the past 1+ month? yesyes, me the cavewoman, if you are laughing at me now=/

on a separate note, o4o5 woohoooo! and maybabies' nyny on 9th yayyayyy!=D forget o4o5 and you die hahaha, tts for you littlegor=P

2009-04-26T13:02:00.002+08:00

never give up hope.
yeah, something tt set me thinking this morning.
if man u can, why cant i.
thankyou gor(s)(=

2009-04-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

perfect time to fall sick. peeerfect=_=

im glad this week is over, sort of. with daily practs, mpa and h3 draining almost every ounce of my energy, ive collapsed, sad to say. yeah, sicksicksick. using up lots of tissuepapers, spamming lots of random medicine. yeah, i need to get well by tmr, tts how desperate i am.

12 days is what we're left with. things are looking good but we have to press on and stay even stronger. yeah, we'll all stand on the bridge on 8th, telling the whole sch tt we aced syf with glory and pride. lets go hcband!=D

2009-04-21T21:34:00.003+08:00

doubts.
yeah, am doubting myself, what im capable of achieving and what i can do for the band.
i guess im just not up to it, and i am starting to ask myself whether im more of a burden.
we all know big bands mean more work, and our section for one, is big.
yeah i shld have more confidence at this point of time, but some things just kill all my self-esteem.
every note seems outoftune, every phase seems unstable.
find it back, you have to find everything back before its too late cheesh.

2009-04-19T19:31:00.002+08:00

i detest being wrongly accused of, period.
go on for all you want, i.dont.give.a.damn.anymore.
in your eyes, everything i do is wrong.
fine, be that way.
i can continue being your autistic little kid.
i repeat, DONT accuse me without solid evidence.

2009-04-18T23:26:00.002+08:00

maybe i've lost my way in this journey.

exchange details aside, it was really nice to see friends whom i used to rely on for strength and support. thankyou for the smiles and hugs, for a moment i felt the cgssb spirit again(=
played, cried, felt lousy, had a good talk with some. yeah, sums up this event. im sorry to those who saw the tears, esp yuen, i didnt mean to scare you=/ bandmates, leezy and wenjun too.
talked to chai, felt better but i guess more of guilty now, for not being a good senior, for having other commitments. priortise, thats what i need to do right now. with h3, mpa and schoolwork of course. i guess tts why i didnt write 'practise everyday' in my reflections because i know very well i cant promise this. but i will try. and then comes efficiency. this is exceptionally impt when you're racing against time. i need to work fast. like real fast, and get as many things done as possible within the shortest period of time. brings me to the most impt lesson learnt today, concentration. no not the chem one, the mind one. losing focus is like wasting time. but i've been spacing out once every few minutes recently, which is a badbad sign. really duibuqi mrleng, lewis and chai. yeah, i need to find it back, on monday. very little time, alot to be done. i think its time we use the energy and drive we have when we mug last minute for exams on our music. make it, or break it.

/remember we're one.

2009-04-14T21:40:00.002+08:00

so its down to 10more combines and 4more sectionals. well plus self-practs which i desperately need to find time to do. seems to be very little time left huhh, but i just had to screw up sectionals today. yeah, am feeling super lousy now and very disappointed in myself. all the metallic sounds that i tried very hard to control but failed, intonation problem caused by my insensitive ears... RARRR. i have to get rid of all these tmr.

2009-04-09T22:23:00.002+08:00

笑着哭最痛.
yeah, learning point of the day.
if you saw me cry this afternoon, dont worry.
it wasnt like what you think, but i can understand because we're all hwach people.
you'll know the reason behind the tears if you're close enough.
once again, dont worry.
im strong and im a big girl, big girls dont cry((=

2009-04-07T20:47:00.002+08:00

3CHEERS FOR CGSSB'S AWESOME KIDS!=D
yeah, welldone juniors, im truly proud of you girls!=) was clutching my phone really tightly throughout the day, all tensed up and worried. felt super relieved when adel smsed to say this was their best performance for overture and iris and when the horns called and sounded optimistic. and then it rained hahaha. yeah its like an syf thing for us, cause this is the 3rd time it rained after crescent played their syf. suddenly all the memories of cgssb and syf came pouring in, and i felt like wearing the cgssb uniform and playing as a crescentian again. ohwelll. congratulations on the gold again, maybe most of you wanted the honours badly, but we all think you girls did great and it is a remarkable achievement already! continue to work hard and stand tall and proud as cgssb-its!<33

2009-03-31T20:33:00.004+08:00

i really hope i havent lost the love and passion for band.

band in crescent may not have been the best in terms of skills and techniques, but it sure was the enjoyable place to be in during my 4years as a crescentian. well we did screw up performances and even syf`o5, but we pulled ourselves together to eventually put up a splendid one on syf`o7. it wasnt about skills, perfect rhythmic sense and all. it was about the passion for band, the determination to do the school proud, the promise to our seniors and the love for one another and mrschua. i still can remember our syf song, the one which we always sing before syf, the one which always make mrschua tear. it may sound stupid to others, but it held a special place in our hearts for most of the alumni, maybe even up till now. 'if you lose your way, think back on yesterday, remember what we've done, remember we're one'. honestly, i applaud the senior who wrote it. those lines never failed to give us confidence and strength to stand tall and proud on stage, and i do hope they do so to cgssbteamo9 next week as well. and the feeling when we stepped down was awesome, not because we could dump all the stress and burdens to the juniors, but because we knew that we've done something real for the band before marking the end of our journey in cgssb. it wasnt the gold, it was the spirit, the true blue cgssb spirit. life in cgssb wasnt about the applause you receive during performances, it wasnt about how much attention the school gives you too. its about the people, the friendship and yes, the love. jiayou cgssb, fight hard and win the battle next tuesday. dont be afraid, and dont worry, just look at mrschua and thats all the strength you need. we may not be there physically to support you girls, but we'll be praying hard for all of you. you'll make this dream come true with mrschua((=

though hcband doesnt work the same as cgssb, i still think that we can make it if we want to. its the desire i guess, and we wont want to disappoint all our seniors. we'll 拼 for the remaining 36days!=)

jiayou too highschool, i guess we've grown to be a little attached to them, maybe because we share the same band room. all the best jiexuan!=) and ny too, esp cheryl!((=

2009-03-30T21:12:00.003+08:00

some things are bugging me hmm. its like theres a combination of issues and all of them are actually quite trival come to think of it, but the fact tt they're all happening at the same time, it gets frustrated and urm at times irritating.
plus, where is my fat rubbish bin=/ alamak, i seriously hope gor is alright, alive and kicking! its getting scary when you havent heard from him for the past few days and yeah, im rather worried actually. but i believe he is fine and doing well, though i do hope to receive a text like at 5am in the morning or sth. mehhh, i miss gor! esp during times like this when i feel helpless and useless=(

on a separate note, syf started today! well for secondary schools at least. im starting to feel the jitters and all, though ours will only come like a month later. but stillllll. ohwelll, we'll pull it through, i hope((=

2009-03-26T21:12:00.002+08:00

now if you think i'll just get soooo busy and will collapse and die eventually, you're wrong. i am strong and i'll prove you wrong. i may not be able to ace this blocks, but i know i've worked hard for it. you may think im being stupid for 'finding trouble for myself' (quoted you), but i think i'll emerge as a stronger and more capable girl after all these. right, the next 2 months may crush me flat, but im not going to die, neither am i going to let my academics drown and die. i cant guarantee the best A-graded results, but i'll fight hard.

headed down to crescent after school to hear the band with liwei. well actually i thought they were not bad!=) ahh yes, obviously theres still room for improvement, but i think they're doing a great job((= yeah, at least there is no more crisis now and i think they're going to make it on 7th. jiayou kids, do all of us, crescent, the alumni, mrschua and yourselves proud alright, lets go cgssb!<33

2009-03-24T21:37:00.002+08:00

right, so blocks are over for now(=

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON!=DD
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JM!<33

hmmm lets talk about manhattan on 21st! hahaha yayy, so it was dinner at ps to celebrate jm's birthday and as usual, no one was on time. hahaha and poor xtee and jm had to sit inside manhattan and suffer from the waitresses' stares while waiting for us. but it wasnt my fault hahaha. food was not bad and needless to say, the company was awesome. andand the cheesecake was niceeee! hahaha although i couldnt tell the difference between oats and crushed walnuts=_= went to the arcade after dinner to see see. i realised i havent gone to an arcade since ages hahaha, shows that im guaii=D was quite amazed by this malay guy at the bball machine, he is super good! hahaha and the fact that everyone started crowding around him shows how good he was. drove to selegie area for the 'famous rochor tauhuay' (quotes B3) after that and the whole place was packed with people omg. we had to settle for seats in the alley. it was so dark and scary and i kept thinking tt there'd be some gang fight later=/ but food was quite nice so yeah, worth the trip(= passed by hwachong on our way home and there was the gala dinner going on hehh. the lighting was really great in my opinion, as in it lit up the sky yeah. then we saw this old couple at the bus stop reading the idk, school mag or sth hahaha and it was actually quite heartwarming to see that. gor was saying we should go back during the 100th anniversary like 10years later tooooo hahaha, quite true((=

alright, now lessons are going to start and band is going to resume tmr too. and just when i was all ready to pia for syf, the balloting results were out=_= we're like after SA and VJ this is like OMGOMGOMGWTHHHH. yeah, they were gwh bands in o7 and they're reallyyy goood. aiyah how now brown cow=S its gng to be on 7thmay morning for us which is sth new for me i guess, since my previous ones were in the afternoon. rarrr. jiayou hcband!

2009-03-19T17:50:00.003+08:00

hmm were my recent posts tt scary and emoish=S then again, thankyou for asking kids, though its quite sian to repeat everything over and over again, i really appreciate all your concern!(=

stj ystd was awesome, apart from the fact tt jingyi pangsehed me for idk, vectors? nah cant blame her, shes been busyy like a beeeee this whole week=( but its okay, after next tuesday everything will be better fob!=D plus theres no h3 for the next 2weeks hehh, extra joy((= right back to stj, not much excitement abt revelation but i think the juniors are a fun bunch of kids yayy, and seeing people like andie wutong and leon camwhoring like girls hahaha, i think its better not to judge books by their covers=PP food was not bad, company was great so yeah, nice!=D and hohoho mcflurry hehh, went to eat with the guys since the icecream inside shokudo was so exxxx. talked a little abt careers, sounds intellectual hor but they were being stupid cause quek was like,'just go bandage your legs and arms and go beg. or set up an organisation and you can plant your beggars all over singapore. then get commission'=_=

on a separate note, cgssb's syf is on 7th april, early on a tuesday morning. which means we cant go down to listen!=(((((( rarrrr, maybe i can fall sick on tt day, maybeeee=D but nonetheless, jiayou fellow bandits! shall visit them after blocks to support people like keziahseow and shun bian give a cheeshanish talk to the horns hahaha. okay it'll just end up to be some laughing session ohwell.

2009-03-17T22:10:00.002+08:00

maybe i was wrong, maybe im thinking too negatively, but it is just quite disappointing. i've been trying hard, maybe not hard enough to you. ohwell, whatever you say, lets just move on and not talk abt it anymore. or at least i wont talk abt it anymore.

2009-03-14T22:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEON!=D

talk about luck, seriously.

2009-03-13T18:24:00.001+08:00

yeah, talk about friends.
haiiiiiiiii, whatever larh, shant go on.
happy holidays anyway=)

2009-03-07T21:40:00.003+08:00

i love saturdays cause i get to stay at home. more importantly, weekly gors are around too. thankyou(=

great job seniors, im proud of all of you((=

/每一段路, 都是一种领悟.

2009-03-06T22:20:00.001+08:00

im really sorry i wasnt there for you, you and you.

2009-03-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

i guess cher-e's words did set me thinking quite a bit. do for the fun, do for the passion, yes?
been hearing lots of stuff abt scholarships, about careers and stuff recently. dont really want to keep on thinking abt all these, since i have more or less decided on my urm yeah, future career path if you call it. but then again, you cant help but worry for yourself when you hear others going on abt studying overseas, getting a good job(in terms of income)... ohwellll, we shall see.
pw comments were out too. idk if it was good, esp when the whole class got roughly the same comments. am glad that op comments was not bad. there was this one which said 'good smile'. i saw that and thought, 'the irony.'

on a separate note, all the best to all seniors getting their As results tmr, chinese people too((= AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ACE IT!=D

2009-02-28T21:22:00.005+08:00

fac cip was not bad, at least now i think the junior class has rather fun and friendly people(= and afterall, its good to rubbish with your classmates once in a while, esp when all you do in school is like rush for lectures, chiong tutorials and mug.

on a separate note, i just heard of a crisis that cgssb is currently facing. maybe i shld talk to the others o7ers, but i guess they're too busy with their own syfs now. hmmmm, shall find some time like during the march hols to go down and take a look. and yeah, february is such a problematic month. but no, i wont collapse like tt, i.am.strong.

i suddenly realised tt todays the last day of feb. but i believe the end of a not-so-good month means the beginning of a better one. hence, march ftw! kill blocks, own hymn+overture, be the best problemsolver, be a better kid.

/edit(o1o3). havent laughed so much in a long while, thankyou Js and 6f(= havent seen gor in a while too, hope he is doing a super fab job at esplanade now(= havent watched soccer in a while toooo, but theres manu later, awesome stuff=D and, lets go march!(=

2009-02-27T22:10:00.002+08:00

alright, i think i've been a dao and b*tchy and extremely unfriendly stupid girl for the past few days. at least i think so, but if you think theres nothing wrong with my attitude and all, maybe we're not close enough. but tts good anw, you wont think cheeshan is some *^@$^%*!#&~ girl.
i've no idea why ive been getting pissed off so easily, even if its just one random statement or one trival issue. sounds like some kid tts always discontented with life? idk. but im glad i didnt retaliate or just scream at innocent parties. yeah, im terribly sorry if you were affected by me, i dont want things to be like tt either. i guess im just accumulating too many issues and stuff, and i'll find a good time to bao4 and be the same old auntie soon. but faccip is not helping at allll, whole weekend gone, and theres technically no time to be a loner, away from all these rubbish. not faccomm's fault, cause its an annual kind of thing, and definitely not weihan's too, cause i know she is trying really hard.
if you think you're a kind soul, you can prepare to catch all the tears. thankyou(=

2009-02-24T23:14:00.003+08:00

LIMELIGHT 2009!<333
yayy, im really proud of the alumni, for having put up a great performance tonight, after like 1 month of practices hehh(= and the cgssb alumni members are alll so hyper and funloving hahaha, totally explains why music has no boundaries (referring to ahem age actl=P) and im proud of the main band tooo, for a job well done and im sure you girls will do great for syf!=D
but it was quite rush-y before the concert and i was acting like a kanchong spider (quotes gz) in the afternoon. chionged home to get all the concert stuff after class and chionged back to get my horn and wait for sweechen. THANKYOUUU HCHORNS ( ESP JASON AND EDWIN) FOR BRINGING MY HORN OVER TO SALT!=D i would have collapsed and died if my horn was still at college hahaha. and i was being a noob directionless senior i bet sweechen is secretly laughing at me for tt. we were like in a rush and i was trying to figure out which bus goes to newton (arh yes call me lu4 chi1 number1=_=) in the end i decided tt i shld request for assistance hahaha, so i called the first person in my inbox hahaha (i wasnt finding an excuse to call you excuse meeee! then again, i dont need to find a reason to call you=/) alright yeah, THANKYOU GOR FOR GIVING DIRECTIONS, I PROMISE I WONT LAUGH AT YOUR LOUSY GPS ANYMORE=D
concert was awesome like i said, and it feels really good to be up on stage with a group of people that you love and miss so much and a group of conductors who gives you the homely feeling. it sort of made me love band and the feeling of playing a horn again, since i've been feeling quite tired of band and bandstuff recently. SO. im looking forward to hc band practs again and we'll make it together. simply cause we belong to the stage.

2009-02-21T23:28:00.002+08:00

im truly thankful for the best sectionmates in the world<33

2009-02-20T14:05:00.005+08:00

i dont like to keep stuffs to myself. i'll have to tell someone eventually, lest i explode or sth. but i havent told anyone yet this time round. even my fulltime rubbishbin (just take it tt you're on leave kay=P) and my bffs as well. it seems like i lost the art of expressing myself freely suddenly. i no longer know how to put things properly, or know how to give a more cheery face. maybe im not a good friend afterall, quote gor (even if he meant it as a joke). im really sorry bff, if i seemed as though i blackfaced you or didnt sound as happy as usual. i didnt want to make you feel upset, but i couldnt make myself sound lively as well, so i chose to shut up. if you're feeling bad, please dont. yeah, because as friends, i'll always be there to back you up and because we're such close friends, theres almost nothing that can make me pissed/disappointed with you. and this is a phase in life we all have to go through, just tt you're facing it the first ( quite normal since you turn 18 first!). no worries, cause i believe everything will turn out fine, btwn all of us. we'll make it, we wont break it<333

feeling quite ranty now, maybe dinner tmr is a good time to rant. but no, shush cheesh, you're not supposed to rant anymore.

2009-02-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

it feels good to be back at cgssb(=
though chionging down from hwach after sectionals was quite tiring and i was so tempted to just alight at the busstop outside my place, i must say ystd's combine was awesome(= not really the music or the tone of the alumni, more of the people and mrschua and mrlee. and mrlee is an awesome conductor seriously, a caring 'grandfatherly' one too. he saw my untouched sausage roll and went, "you havent had your dinner? go have it now, go go go!" hahaha, maybe it seemed nothing much to others, but it meant alot to a cgssbit. any cgssbit i would say, and its that kind of love within us that brought us all the golds and whatnots(=

on a separate note, we'll be starting almost from scratch from now on, since the new j1s just joined us today. though it seems like taking a few steps back in this syf journey, i hope we can pull through it as one eventually(= lets go hcband!<333

2009-02-14T22:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VDAY ALL!=D
dinner with c2clique at crystaljade just now to celebrate the single awareness day, quote sandra(= it was really nice to see everyone again, okay maybe not, since lily is like everywhere, and mich is here for h3 twice a week hehh=P but we havent talked like that since after promos last year. talked abt friends, trust between friends(=P), and of course the usual bgr stuffs. had lots of fun laughing at lily's i-cant-hide-secrets face, and the spotchecking of phones. figured that we were taking up the space of people who were queuing outside after a while, so we headed off to starbucks(= cheesecake was YUMMMMM=D ohh tts besides the point. continued gossiping, something which i havent done truly this year=P left at ten-ish and walked with lily to the 145stop. talked abt family this time round, and felt a little... idk, wu2 nai4? i guess tts the more appropriate word to use. ohh welll.
on a separate note, walked home after tt and past the cemetary area near my place as usual. felt a little scared suddenly hahaha. idk why in the beginning, then i realised i usually have gor entertain me on my way home at nights, and obviously i dont get frightened at all cause i'd be busy laughing at him(= and then i concluded that i really miss him alot tsk. i hope he is fine now anyway hehh=D

2009-02-08T14:02:00.004+08:00

"eternal friends do not exist"-- '15'.
come to think of it, its really true. shall try to maintain these friendships, for as long as they can last.

2009-02-06T22:24:00.001+08:00

100.
when the whole of 2oo8 seemed so short, the past 100 seemed like millions of years.

2009-02-02T21:34:00.003+08:00

actually, its nice to see the new j1s(=
to think chai and i were still ranting about how our class benches will be halved, how school will be super crowded hehh. but seeing them in their ogs today somehow cheered me up quite a bit, i wonder why. brought back many fond memories i guess, would have crashed one of them with liuzhen if not for h3 honestly=P and edwin was telling me how his ogl called him at 11+pm on saturday, waking up his whole family and all hahaha. totally reminded me of my urm beloved botak ogl hohoho=PPPP cause he called at 11+ too my mum was like, 'ehh your call, its a GUY.'=_=' quite amused actl. ohwelllll, no more orientation, lots of seriouswork, band, h3 tsktsktsk. no, i shant complain, neither shall i rant, as promised(((=

i hope alumni turns out well, i promise to commit to it and turn up for 75% of the practs hehh. and cindy shall keep her promise and buy me dinner on wednesday=D

2009-01-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

yayy, happy new year all!=D im super lag yes, but you cant blame me, cny back at msia was too fun tt i cant be bothered to blog hehh=P

i think this cny we spent the longest time in msia wheeeee=)) met up with lots of urm 'longlost' cousins and relatives hehh, heard some latest gossips=P, and did a great job in family bonding=D ate alot too! hahaha, i mean tts like obviously the norm during cny but this year there was like alot more stuff to eat, and they're all superrr yummyyyyyy hahaha, maybe its okay to join the ranks jason, im sure its worth it afterall=PPP

i was thinking about life there the second night, and i thought my cousins and all are really happy there and are doing well even though they always look so relaxed. maybe to bmt boys, life away from civilisation is like hell, but i do like my kind of away-from-civilisation life there. especially when you have the coolest and funkiest family, with only joy and laughter in the house [food of course larh=_=] i saw the love shared between all of us, and the family strength which many others there are envious of. im truly thankful for having such an awesome family, life is never emoish with you guys around. hayashis<3333

yishun-ed yesterday with the other fab group of people((= though i was quite tired after band outing, i still enjoyed their company alot. speaking of band outing, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA! hahaha ate at hotpotculture with 'family' and pooled before i left. had quite a bit of fun, and thankyou sir and ma'am for your generosity hahaha, you guys kept your promises!=DD back to yishun. it was quite disappointing cause it wasnt full strength, since gor was at his hostel doing work=/ but it was a pleasant trip larh, i mean knowing all my highly entertaining cousins(((= hahaha, going to see them again the whole of this weekend, but its super exciting cause its going to be a lot more funnn=) and duh, we dont get sick of one another hehh=D

2009-01-22T22:26:00.004+08:00

and there goes the second week of school (with official lessons i mean).
idk what was wrong with me today during band honestly. was totally not in the mood to play during the second half of sectionals, but thank goodness it became slightly better during combine. it wasnt because we did only 2bars, it wasnt really because of the growing headache cause we were stuck in this enclosed room. maybe i was tired, like what chai said. but i guess theres sth else beneath the weariness. ohwelll, im okay already, and im proud of myself, to have held my tears back during combine. thankyou chai and jason for asking, auntie cheeshan is fine!=)

and everything will eventually become better over this cny period. im looking forward to lots of food and fun. hayashis and besties are loveee<333

2009-01-16T23:24:00.002+08:00

hello world, im proud to announce tt yours truly have successfully survived the first week of school as a j2 student hehh((= actually this week is quite slack, because i'll start to get more busy when h3 kicks in next week.
no change of tutors for us, except for gp. honestly, idk what to feel about this, cause we were hoping for a change of tutor for my urm.. favourite subject=_=' but ohwelll, i guess thats the final arrangement so like what ms ouyang, our new gp teacher said, we must learn to adapt to one another's way of life hahaha. speaking of which, ms ouyang is gooood, she actually has the power to make our class speak up. its like so rareeee! not tt our class is very enthu during gp now, but at least we're responding and not leaving her standing there doing a monolog.
band practs this week were rather fruitful, for we improved quite a bit and accomplished quite a lot, according to mrleng. though its not easy to stay fully awake and energetic during these afterschool band practs, i think we're sounding better and better. and hahaha, i think thats partly because everyone is starting to turn up since its an afterschool thing((= and ive learnt yet another skill in band hahahaha, to crack in tune=S i was quite amused but apparently tts sth horns are capable of doing hehh. maybe we shall all try hard to get tt right. okay no, we must get tt right, we're supposed to be the top schoolband, not the topschool's band, quote unquote irene=DD which reminds me, our rehearsal is on o3o5, what a date. its like so close to syf and it'll be hard to adjust our balance and all to the rp cultural hall with just a few days left. i guess by then, it'll be superX358901268 intensive for all of us.

on a separate note, cny is coming but seems like theres like no atmosphere around. idk, maybe its just us, taking into account tt we arent really able to celebrate it this time round. but hc is nice enough to give us an extra day off on wed, so it sounds more like a festive season? rarrr we'll just end up mugging at home or sth. butbutbut im looking forward to visits! msia from 24th-27th then besties every weekend during the cny period, wheeeee=D life is good with awesome company<33

and on another separate note, we're getting a section backpack hahahaha. sounds lame and whatever but no, its the section spirit of hchorns!=D hehhh, i wonder how we'll all look like with the same kind of bag, should be quite amusing=P

2009-01-05T21:06:00.002+08:00

假如你还在这里... the rest shall be kept somewhere else.

2008-12-31T18:55:00.009+08:00

SO. today marks the end of 2008 and i actually cant believe it. maybe this year really passed way too fast. ohwelll, this year has been alright on the whole i guess(=

january was a month of fun, mainly because there werent any official lectures or what. orientation was great beyond description with a bunch of funloving ogmates and a fab ogl who eventually morphed into my godbrother hahaha. and then 24th, besides lily's 17th, our 'O's results. i swear that was one of the best things that has happened to me(= my heartfelt gratitude goes to crescent and its team of wonderful teachers<33

i cant recall much abt feb-april, just lessons proper and lots of tests i guess=/

may was, as usual, the best month of the year hehh. turned 17, a cool age like i mentioned(= felt a lot more mature and learned to use my binoculars more[cgssb lingo=P] 30th was capriccio, my first concert with the hcband, one of the best group of musicians one can ever play with, and the horn section, the high-est section in the band=DD

june-october was a period of mugging mainly, for blocks and for promos. honestly, i've never seen people mugging so hard before. call me a mugger yes, but its really my first time seeing people mugging in almost every corner of the school=S or maybe crescent is just slacker hahaha. didnt expect myself to do superbly well, so i was just glad to have been promoted(((=

then came november, the disaster. op was on 4th, grandma departed on 3rd. it was already hard to do up op stuff and getting the whole group ready and grandma's incident just dealt a blow on me. 3rd's night was the worst in my whole entire life seriously.

december hmmmm. had noel on 4th, with the highsch and nanyang juniors. it was a good attempt, us and the organising committee. and the horn juniors are great kids to have((= then christmas, one of the more happy family events this year [refer to previous previous post]=D

yeah so thats about all this year. and i wouldnt have survived this year and all these wouldnt have been possible without these few people(s) :

- og25, for giving me a great start to the year and for all the love and joy and fun which made hc so much more friendly and lovely=DD

- tingwei, for being a superb angel and ensuring that i didnt get outcasted during pae period. thankyou for those talks here and there which enlightened me quite a bit, and thankyou alot for the support in november. all the best in ns next year kay!=DD

- hcband, seniors and batchmates, for making band practs so much more enjoyable and less dreadful(= its been really nice working with you guys and thankyou for making me laugh every pract. school has become a betterbetter place with all of you around<33
- hchorns! hahaha yes, the most talented, enthu and funny people in the band((= thankyou for all the jokes which kept all of us awake during practs. thankyou too, for all the encouragement and support [batchmates esp], and the rubbish [mostly during morning assemblies]. to batchmates and juniors, we'll own syf together, hchorns ftw!<33

- gor, for always being there. thankyou so much for everything, esp being my permanent rubbishbin(= weeklys've been fun with all your smses and night rides home have been really entertaining with your calls. do take lots of care next year alright, i thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being such an awesome character in my life<33

- jingyi, my dearest classmate=PP hahaha thankyou for keeping me alive in class, tts so very important and keeping me updated with all the latest gossips. i look forward to another wonderful year with you, jiayou for As, seeyou soon!<33
- LILYY, my beloved bff for 5 years and counting(= seriously, i cant imagine life without you hahaha. thankyou for being a call/sms/centralplaza away, and your hugs and shoulders have always made the worst things fine. well, being such close friends, you should know what i want to say hehh. jiayou for everything next year, esp 'A's, wo ai ni hen duo hen duo!<33

- besties(= thankyou for everything this year, all the love and support. thankyou for making time for all the gatherings. sundays have been fab and filled with lots of fun and laughter with your company. though this year didnt end too well for all of us, we'll pull through it together and im sure it'll make us stronger than before. thankyou for being the bestest cousins one can ever have<333

last but not least, HAPPY 2009 ALL!=D

2008-12-30T23:01:00.002+08:00

question of the day [or rather, yesterday] : how do you express/explain something to someone who hasnt experienced it before.
hmmm, thoughtprovoking. tt was what mrleng asked after telling us a longg story as usual. but true enough, its hard to get someone to feel your way if he/she hasnt gone through the same process. he/she may think he/she understands, but actually he/she doesnt. okay if you understand what i mean=/

2008-12-28T23:19:00.005+08:00

okay i know im damn lag but i needed the photos before i can sit down and blog. but anyway, merry belated christmas!=DD
christmas eve was spent with family again this year and it was super fun and entertaining=) had our usual gift exchange at ard 11+ and we were practically shouting and laughing throughout the whole process. it was so bad that lj's neighbours even look through their windows at us hahaha. but who cares, its christmas afterall!=DD it was really funny cause we were all eyeing the cash prizes kindly and generously sponsored by the urm older generation hahaha and it was very amusing watching the present-opening cause you really never know whats inside hahaha. but all in all it was great=DD sat around and shared a bit of stuff, about 2008 and like what to expect in 2009. sounds serious ehh, but no. knowing us, it turned out to be some typical crapping/niaoing session=P
then off we went for supper! wheee hahaha, decided on toapayoh initially cause of the highly anticipated porridge at haijinglou(= but the drivers were too lazy they went on strike=_=' so we went to bukittimah instead omggg. i was like, 'what, bt again?!' and the best part was someone even suggested prataplace=_=' thankfully there were too many violent objections we ate porridge at wendongji in the end=D food was not bad, but i wasnt feeling well so idk, a little tasteless? but im sure it was just me cause everyone else was happily eating away=S but its alright, company was fab=D left for home at ard 2+ and that was my christmaseve+christmasmorning((=
yayy. i think we're going to celebrate newyear's eve aka kua4 nian2 together this wednesday. i hope so hahaha, i think its an awesome idea hahaha. besties ftw!<33333

presents!=D

gor and the legendary bao3 xiang1=_='

my present!((=

<33

half of all=DDD

2008-12-20T22:24:00.002+08:00

hmmm theres like only 3 more weeks to the start of school again, and there're so many things undone omg. to think i still believed at the start of this holidays that i would be able to do alot more stuff this time round since our break is extended. but i guess life is just so unpredictable. well if we are close enough, you should know what i mean larh. haiii tsk, im beginning to dread the new year now.

2008-12-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOR!<333
wheee today was yayyness=D but before tt, operation 1412 was great tooo hahaha. we painstakingly came up with this plan which we thought was totally perfect without any loopholes, in order to surprise him. and it was really hard to act i swear but we managed to get him to the carpark to get the car eventually hahaha. then my cousin was supposed to pretend to be some carthief trying to steal from our car. we were all ready to record his reaction hahaha and meanwhile the adults were to discreetly make their way up to my place and wait for all the kids to come back and surprise him with the cake and blahblah. the beginning was good but it wasnt successful in the end hahahah. shant elaborate but it was super hilarious we couldnt stop laughing at ourselves=P ohwelll, nice attempt i would say hehh=) and i love the cake seriously, the design is so pretttyyyy! i shall upload the pictures once someone is un-lazy enough to send hehh=)
town-ed with cow and gor today yayy(= they wanted to catch bolt so we went, it was quite nice actually hahahaha, plus i cant rmb when was the last time i caught a movie with them, so its really nice((= i think chai is going to kill me for leaving her alone with the band guys the other day=/ shopped after tt as usual, spent a little cash tooooo=P then dinner!! hahaha omg dinner was loveee. had seafood at turfcity and i havent been eating tt much since...idk hahaha. i wanted to take pictures to spite people but by then the food was already like half gone hahaha=P ohwelll, food was awesome, company was even better<3

2008-12-11T21:44:00.002+08:00

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
Mamas, daddies, sisters,
brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause
we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and "I missed you"
but when we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on
"I wish I could talk to you for a while"
miss you but I try no to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached
a better place
Still I'd give the whole world to see your face
And be right here next to you
but it feels like you're gone to soon
now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

And you never got a chance to
see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave
me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
you'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on
"I wish I could talk to you for a while"
miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
and it's true you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the whole world to see your face
And be right here next to you
but it feels like you're gone to soon
now hardest thing to do is say bye bye --- [ByeBye- Mariah Carey]

goodbye, its really hard to let you go=/

2008-12-10T20:30:00.002+08:00

though i totally love going back to msia, i must admit its quite sad to hear family issues/conflicts and all. sometimes i wonder if a big family like ours can stay strong together forever.

and though i love familygatherings here, its hard to stay high and happy each time now because it just feels empty after a while. and now theres another issue and i seriously think it shouldnt be happening at this point of time.

2008-12-09T21:26:00.002+08:00

somehow bandbreak seems so sian and boring. hahaha maybe im too used to band practs and all, mehh super no life!=S
but the trip back to msia was greattttt=D this time round many were back and its really nice to everyone again. good food, good talks, good company, hehh i guess tts all it takes to make an awesome weekend((=
went off to yishun from the checkpoint last evening to jm's and it was just more fun. though we only spent 2hours there, it was still very entertaining and its so rare that we see one other on 2 consecutive days [well except on my grandmama's funeral tt is] =)

hmmm, im starting to feel sad cause january is drawing near and many seniors will be off to tekong, like reallyyy sad tsk. feels like few years back when gor and my cousins went ns. people like band seniors esp sean rujun, class seniors like tingwei weiguo, and gor... haiiiiii, its like losing lots of joy in life, will miss them alot alot mehhh=/

2008-12-05T20:05:00.002+08:00

NOEL!=DD
wheee, so noel was held last night and i think we did a pretty good job((=

section lunch at 1130 [very early yes] at currywok with chai irene amanda jason and cheryl(= settled tickets with lily and jingyi when we came back and omg lily carried a yalam bag! hahaah high five jingyi, lily totally rolled her eyes at us hahaha=P took a long time to get the banner up in the audi after tt due to erm, lack of equipment hahaha. but i think the noel banner was nicee!=D rehearsed lalala then dinnered. and we thought it was going to be the capriccio bento but ohwelll hahaha.

sneaked out of rua with chai before the concert to see what was going on at the reception area and hohoho saw jiaen and mandy!=D i think i gave good directions, they made it to the audi in less than 5minutes! hahaah im so proud of myself(((= ohh hahaha and i heard gor wanted to surprise me=_=' when obviously it wasnt successful cause i saw him, i mean his back and bag and weixin said sth to sean which gave it away hehh. but good attempt nonetheless, i appreciate it alot!((=

concert was not bad on the whole, except some screwups here and there for myself. but i think i did okay for the threnody part though(= goodjob on your solo chai!=D and goodjob too irene lionel jiachen chai for all your gimmicks, i think the audience had a pretty good laugh=D and thankyou so much sean and kheexuan for being such awesome emcees!=D

welldone horns, you guys did great! and to the juniors, jason ziyan cheryl jiexuan, hope you guys had fun playing with us and its been truly a wonderful experience working with all of you(= so jason ziyan please join band next year!! hahaha and thankyou batchmates chai irene and amanda for pulling through all the practices with me, giving me support and encouragement, i love you all!=DD and not forgetting nutcase, we miss you lots and hope your attachment went well((= hmmm i must say im really glad to have joined band and the horn section, we make a superb section(((=

lastly, many thanks to those who came to support us and for all the flowers and chocs(((= thankyou jiaen and mandy for coming though you've just returned from japan((= thankyou lily and jingyi for coming and the imba 'zishan' water. i know you guys had a tiring training in the morn, i love you bffs(((= thankyou pris, samho and friends for coming and erm giving me your ticket money in coins=PP thankyou gor for coming despite having lots of stuff to do, thankyou for the attempted surprise too, you know i appreciate it lots and you know i'll miss you alot when you go to tekong(((= thankyou seniors for coming and for providing so much entertainment during the intermission and after the concert, i hope we didnt disappoint you guys(((=

o412o8, i love teamNOEL`o8<333333333333

2008-11-30T13:40:00.002+08:00

imagine staying out for like 15hours hahaha, wheee=DD

band as usual in the morning and leng actually said we're ready for noel o.O exactly, its rather unbelieveable considering how he threatened to cancel noel last year or sth. he said it should be one of his best 'noel's and well, provided we dont screw up on 4th of course=S but we did sound not bad honestly. but then again, with approx. 4practs a week, we obviously ought to sound better hehh. ohh and i dont mind if machu picchu becomes our set piece i guess.

then it was the very first non-sunday gathering hahaha. and to think we started planning 2weeks ago, all the ecp, prawning/fishing, buffet, steamboat and what nots, we just ended up doing what we always do -- chevrons=_=' hahahah but it was fun still, with additional members(= pooled with gz for a while after tt and hohohohhhh, i won lehh hahaha. but im sure he fang4-ed shui3 larh cause he thought im a pool noob or sth. but heyy, im not tt bad lorhhh hahaha.

took another like 20minutes to decide where to go for dinner=_=' ate at ajisen in the end, after walking to cafe cartel and walking back again hahaha. and omg lj is such an auntie hahaha, she was totally promoting the kimchi ramen cause it was on promotion hahaha. crayfish ramen was quite good, but was super bloated after tt. someone still said we could go to the prata place for supper hahaha. and we tried coming up with stupid excuses to siam the bill, which obviously didnt work=P

walked around imm, and idk who suggested we should buy boardgames back to play=S hehh and we saw lots of those we played when we were really young, like guess who hahaha. went back to bp instead cause of cluedo initially but we ended up watching russellpeters till like 12+ hahaha. he is quite funny, and i would have been more amused if i wasnt sleepy.

yayy, now i look forward to our next date -- minds/settlers. wheee, i love 十兄弟 <3333

2008-11-25T21:05:00.004+08:00

hehh though im superrr tired cause of yesterday and today, i must say these 2days've been a great fun!=D

yesterday was a longg day hahaah. pract in the morning was quite ineffective partially cause some of us had to go back to college for briefing. and ended up something happened back at salt during tt point of time which pissed irene and co off hahaha.

then chai irene and jiachen came over to crash after lunch. basically it was just to rot and stone around before leaving for the airport hahaha. and we were looking at HMM very interesting blogs which cracked us up quite bit hahh. and chai i still have your messy drawing in my com, you may want to claim it soon!=)

trip to changi was HAHAHA. cause jiachen left some stuff at my place and we only rmbed when we reached the train station. so we walked all the way back to get it hahaah. sweaty yes but nevertheless, a good form of exercise i figured=P and hahaha when we were at tanah merah, jiawei called chai and said the ocip people landed and have already walked out of the arrival hall! and yes its quite retarded cause we were supposed to fetch them but in the end they had to wait for us to come=_=' quite amusing actually. ice-creamed at airport macs after tt, stoned for a while more before heading off to BUGIS for jts hehh. speaking of bugis, im sure the seniors must be quite happy with the venue hahaha. we scammed them at first, saying tt the time was changed from 730 to 7 cause we told they would sure be late hahaha. sean and rujun were super shocked and apologies but we had quite a good laugh on the train hehh. and both of them were at orchard so we thought we shouldnt be too mean by organising jts at tampines(=P) so we changed it(=

jts=DDD yes though im quite broke currently after jts, jts was <333
we were surprised tt they were well... very punctual hahahaha. nydc-ed after much consideration and food was not bad(= but jts turned out to be a b*tching session cause of irene's story and seanchia who kept swearing=P shared lots of gossips and half the time we were just laughing away hahaha. and smart sean decided to play zhong ji mi ma and he was so enthu abt the 1 teaspoon of tobasco and rujun's mixture of everythng-on-the-table=_=' but ended up both of them kena the most number of times hahaha=P and lucky me didnt even kena once=DDD ohwelll but it was a lot of fun talking/auntieing with the seniors again, hchorns<333

today was tune-in from 9am when there werent even alot of sec4s who came. but thankyou joan for coming, i really appraciate it and i hope she made lots of friends today!=) games were damn confusing cause some decided to use others' names for the day and half the time i didnt even know who i was calling=S and auntie nena came! we were totally auntieing again during combine and it was veryvery amusing=P

so tts abt all, more to come after this weekend((=

2008-11-22T20:23:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEANCHIA AKA POSER SL!=DD
I LOVE CGSSB!<3
so yes, apart from having to wait till 12am just to message him [when irene totally pangsehed and sent it 5minutes earlier!], yesterday was <33333333333333

yesyes yesterday was ME`o8 at yongsiewtoh conservatory of music and it was an evening of total fun and entertainment!=DD reached crescent at 12plus with liwei and we actually thought we were late but NO, we stoned for another hour before boarding the bus because the lorry driver actually drove to the wrong school omg=_=' hahaha seriously which part of 'crescent girls' school at tanglin' didnt he understand hahaah. had quite a bit of fun laughing at my juniors on the way there, cause they totally reminded me of how i was like back in the cgssb days hehh. and mandy's question amused us a little, 'what does NUS stand for? national university... erm school?' hahaha oh liwei, its not my fault for not teaching my juniors general knowledge honestly hahaha.

yongsiewtoh is a pretty hall i swear, its like the esplanade kind of hall and it gives the very grand feeling and its nice to play in there(((= ohh andand their dressingrooms are so spacious esp dressing room 2 hahaha, but too bad they refuse to give DR2 to the alumni=S ohwellll. and dinner! omg i seriously wonder why dinners start to get better after we left the band=S and ms azilah went like,'oh tts cause we have more budget now, so we can provide better food' like wth, means we used up all our budget when we were still around?!=_='

concert was really great, though the mainband sounded really tired towards the end of the first half. but the audience was rather high towards the end so i think all the effort we put in was worthwhile hehh=) and of course, the feeling of playing under mrschua/mrlee's baton was simply AWESOMEEE. im starting to miss that kind of feeling already ohnoooo=S but theres still limelight next feb! though im quite sure we cant play for tt since syf is coming up and all.

its been a rather tiring week for me cause having to cope with both bands is not that easy hmm [like lily says, two-side run=_=] but i did had lots of fun with both bands!=D and now tt noel will be in less than 2weeks' time, we'll be having intensive band practs so as to not screw up noel. and i honestly think noel`o8 will be an entertaining concert if we work hard for the rest of the practs. hcband ftw!=DD

2008-11-15T23:52:00.003+08:00

如果离别是一种疾病，它是那种长期令你痛苦的。
加上心灵上的折磨，它让你痛不欲生。
如果想念是一种声音，我希望它是悦耳动听的。
但愿它能化成旋律，回荡在耳际。
如果回忆是一本书，我知道它会是世上最厚的。
相信它也是色彩斑斓、扣人心弦的那一本。
如果亲情是一股力量，它会陪我熬过所有难关。
重要的是，它将比以往更强烈。

we'll stay strong and united, as one(=

2008-10-26T23:52:00.003+08:00

hahaha this post is a response to chai's tag!=P
well there wasnt much to say so i guess tts the main reason why my blog has been stagnant since... quite long hehh. my lifes been revolving around pwwrop recently, i swear its really tiring, dreadful and siannnn. i dont like to stay up till super late just to rush things tt need to be submitted the next morning. i dont like to be rushed, i dont like feeling the sense of urgency because i'll just start getting all worked up and start uttering rubbish=S and apart frm tt, i got promoted(= yes, very lag but still, just treat it like a reply to wanling's tag hehh.
butbut im looking forward to many things that are coming up!=D theres 6fclassbbq tmr, familygathering on sunday, facouting on o711, c2gathering on o811, cgssbconcert on 2111, noel on o412... and im sure there're more than tt wheee!=DD hahaha sounds like alot of fun yayyy. and omg i cant wait for alumni practs to start, its been ages since i last met up with my fellow cgssbandits! i wonder how it'll feel to sit in the bandroom and play with them again((=

as the year comes to an end, i must say I LOVE LILYPHOABFF AND JINGYIBAOBAO!=DD random but yes, i love them for being there and giving me strength throughout the whole year. crescentians ftw!<33

2008-10-05T23:40:00.002+08:00

YAYY. hahaha no more promos! for now at least, provided if i successfully get promoted=)
and double yayy cause my weekend was spent in malaysia, my kamponggg hahahaha=PP and triply yayy cause it was ahma's birthday ystd!=D she was so funny hahaha. havent gone back since yun jie's wedding in may, and now shes alr pregnant with a baby boy, its been really long hahaah. saw lots of new faces too, like kim jie's boy, lao da's boy and more. and of course, i couldnt recognise any of them, to think they are my nephews=S steamboat was WOW, especially when theres cool company hehh. lots of jokes and laughter and i was highly entertained=D and i was super amused by them. cause they were having their second round, i was just thinking of sitting down to do some catching up but my cousin went like, "no, you go take a fork, a spoon and a bowl before sitting down. you cannot just sit and talk, MUST eat also." i was like O.O hahaha and everyone else just laughed and nodded in agreement omg. caught bpl with them too and all of them totally roared when sunderland scored against arsenal hahaha. my cousin just turned and hugged me=_= like huhh, very happy hor hahahaha. life is tt simple and filled with happiness in malaysia, hmmm=) man u match was even funnier, i couldnt even hear the tv cause they were all commenting and shouting like nobody's business hehhh, it was so shuang3 to watch soccer with them honestly=D
todays just talk talk talk, erm more like laugh laugh laugh cause my aunts and uncles are super hilarious. im not surprised if someone tells me its in the genes. like bornjokers arh hahaha. and shenggor bought a dog omg no one told me! until i saw this black thing running towards us when we were talking=_= i totally jumped and ran for my life hahaha. okay not tt serious but i was freaking out. his name is ryan, he is black, runs quite fast=S but quite obedient actually, since he didnt keep barking, just sat there and watched us. hehh, quite fun though(=
right, malaysia is the ultimate <3333

2008-08-27T20:59:00.001+08:00

人，在到了某个点，会失控崩溃。
sometimes i just need to be left alone.
dont come near me, lest i explode and snap at you.

2008-08-26T20:34:00.002+08:00

it sucks when you're sick.
it sucks even more when you have to mug when you're sick.
mehhh.

2008-08-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

to lily, irene, chai, yiyi and all those freaking out about promos, dont worry alright, we'll chiong together after luce and ace it together[hopefully]=DD
to my dearest gor, jiayou in ntu and takecare lots, will see you soon<33
to my next dearest gor, mug hard and always believe in yourself because i do believe in you. jiayouX942853761<33

2008-08-11T21:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAIIIII=DD
dimsum-ed with section today to celebrate chai's birthday(= hehh it was really really fun! except for the fact that the amk and boonkeng guys had to travel so long to imm hahaha. it was totally not my faulttt*stares at chuu* hahaha. and getting a cake can be so difficult i tell you. had to make irene go walk with chai then we went to hunt for a cakeshop with small/cheap cakes hahaah, budget ehh=PP hahaha and so we finally went into crystal jade after like 1hour=_= and it took us another 20minutes to place our orders, reason being we were indecisive and budgety hahaha. laughed alot at random stuff while eating, like how rujun was complaining abt the price and 'i thought it is jts today' thing=P and how chai tried to take photos of us eating/stoning=/ AND how we forced sean to call yiyi to join us hahaha. and he agreed larh omg, for a moment we thought it'll be hard to persuade him hehh=PP birthdaycake part was total rubbish, took 10minutes to remove the plastic and rujun was so hilarious he took the 'happybirthday' chocolate-made sign away and ate it before we even sang the birthday song=_= and the most dumb part was when we told him, he placed the half-eaten sign back, which only had the word 'birthday' on it hahaha, tt was really funny. AND IT WAS SO DIULIAN STUPID SEAN [AND RUJUN I THINK] PURPOSELY SANG THE BIRTHDAY SONG SO LOUD AND OUT OF TUNE! hahaha its a pity we didnt catch the reactions of the other customers and the waitresses=P but it was so paisehh, hahaha sean and his worldclass singing=_= hahaha, but it was rather entertaining(=

so yupp, end of nationalday holidays, and i seriously feel the urgency to mug. not tt im a mugger but there're other stuffs to deal with. mehhhh. and wheres my gor when i need jokes and entertainment aiyohhh, haiiii=(( i seriously seriously need to start work asap, i need to find back the drive and motivation, i cannot lose steammmmm!!!![not tt there was steam to start with anw=_=] haiii jiayou shann=S jiayou too lily, jingyi, hornies, gor and gor[=

2008-08-09T14:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAYYY!=))
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHONGSHENGGG=PPP

here comes the slightly longer weekend. guess its a good time to pack everything nicely and get down to some serious work. then again, olympics`o8 is going on now, which means i'll start to spend time on the tv [yes, indulging in unhealthy sources of entertainment=P] oh wellll.
preparation for luce hasnt been as hiong as i thought it would be, mainly because there was national day stuff and highsch anthem to deal with. theres only one week left and im feeling really unprepared. the thought of having to sightread two pieces right before the performance just feels scary. plus we havent really been working alot on our own pieces, and now theres the norfolk dances, aka horror of my retarded laggy fingers=S mehhh, time for daily practs i guess. and when every other ccas stopped this week, luce is on 20aug, woww. but not like i'll devote all my time to mugging anyway, ohwell.
im physically weak i realise. and its not good at all.
jiayou manymany for prelims 6fseniors, bandseniors, gor. stay strong yupp, it'll be over real soon=]

2008-08-03T14:32:00.008+08:00

farewell.
right, so last night was band farewell at nus staff clubhouse. spent the past two days[excluding the shopping days] doing up all the presents for the seniors. though it was really tiring, but i guess its all worthwhile yupp((=
met nutcase at buonavista and bussed down to nus, which was soo huge. stopped two busstops before the correct one, so we had to walk for a while. not very long i suppose, since we spent the whole time talking abt random stuff hehhh. then we totally couldnt find the clubhouse though we saw the signboard mehh, but luckily we met irene so tadah, we didnt get lost in the end((=
so farewell started at ard 720 cos some seniors couldnt find their way or sth. and the seniors, horn seniors to be exact, were frantically trying to rush out our presents during the trumpets/tubas videos hahaha. it was really hilarious cos they kept trying to shoo us away hehh=PP exchanged presents after that and it was reallyreally funny. i guess we chose the right present for them hahaha, esp sean and rujun who totally catwalked in front of the band hahaha. ohh and they really put in alot of effort in doing up our presents, aka yi2zhao4s-lookalike=PP its very pretty yayy, thankslottttt=DD the rest of the farewell, while waiting for the councillors, was just basically camwhoring, talking, eating hahaha. ohh reminds me, i think our section koped half the hargaos there oops=P cindy, weiguo, junjie and kheexuan reached like rather late, ard 9+ i guess=/ then everyone was in a mad rush trying to give them their presents, take photos and all before we get chased out of the place=S ohh and the 'cheque' we got for them was really hugeee and weiguo was so tempted to bring it home hahaha, im highly amused=P
so yesterday marked the end of the j2s' band life as hcbanders officially, which was... kind of saddd i thought. no we didnt cry[cos rujun&sean&luther etc were highly entertaining] but i guess there was a tinge of sadness felt towards the very end, when we walked to the busstop and said goodbye. mehhhh, the after-capriccio feeling is back again ohnoo=(( like i said, its really amazing how close we can be after like merely 7months. shant go on since everything tt needs to be said are all written down for the seniors mmm. then again, thankyou sooo much for being there, band will never be the same without you guys.

zhao1pai2 post=P

'princess' chaii! [irene blocked me hahaha]=P

yatingg!![she is really funny]=D

welll they attempted to look as if someone died, but failed=PP

RUJUN THE CHUBBY CHINAMAN!=DD

HARAPAN..MAGICCC=DD

SEANCHIA THE BEST SL+POSER=DD

AUNTIE NENAAAAA=DD

si4 da4 tian1 wang2=PP

hahaha rujun looks like some ahbeng=P

glam caining!=))

our superrrr AA poser=P

WEIGUO QUACKQUACK!=PP

CINDYY! CRESCENTIANS FTW=DD

weiguo and the reaallyyy big cheque((=

cool shirts ehh=)

HCHORNS`o8=DDDDD

ermmm. no comments=PP

farewell present yayyy=DD

thankyou sean. thankyou caining. thankyou rujun. thankyou harapan. im reallyreally glad to have the funniest+funkiest section seniors this year(((= thankyou for the joy and laughter, i'll miss you guys alotalot((=
/散场只为了体会, 重逢有多温暖.

2008-07-29T21:14:00.002+08:00

sectionshopping again hahaha, was really tired but it was yet another funn outing(((= well technically speaking it wasnt exactly section shopping cos there were only chai irene and i so yupp. we could have been done with everything by 5 by ended up going home close to 7 because we spent like 2hours travelling hahahaa. quite a waste of time actl but the company was good, so i guess its alright hahh. went to ps to get whatever we needed and planted ourselves in macs to do all the necessary stuffs while lunching. and i conclude that my thumbs are too big to hold small things in place hahaha, what an eye-straining experience i had hehh. walked around somemore after we were done to shop for other seniors' gifts and i think we're going to spend the next few nights on them mehh. but nvm, beats staring at chem equilibrium and ap/gp anw=P
was talking to chai about how hard the j2s are mugging for prelims and all. i realise that maybe it wasnt that bad studying for olevels afterall, as compared to what the seniors are facing. its like going to determine their future directly i would say and it really requires a great deal of effort and determination and motivation to do continuous work all the way till prelims/alevels. honestly, its not easy=/ like the band seniors, they're all trying their best to work and its quite sad to see them getting all so stressed up and flustered. like gor, he seems to be reallyreally tired, physically/mentally and it makes everything worse when i cant do much to help mehh. hmm jiayoujiayou all, stay focussed and motivated and im sure you guys will do very well de kay((= gogogo gor, you have my support(=

2008-07-28T19:52:00.004+08:00

saturday! 26o7o8<33
speechday`o8. honestly, i missed the feeling of reaching school at 7am when the sky is still quite dark hehh(= met liwei, tie and ersy at the band room before reporting at pat. saw the cgssbkids setting up their booth for learning fest as well and got reminded of our balloonsthing last year=) yupp then saw manymany more `o7ers together with mrsyip and mrtan, collected our stuff and then went to the auditorium(= then speechday started at 9, yadayada hahahah, so it was just the normal proceedings larh basically hehh. met c2ers outside the chem lab after that and got our letters from wendy and lili. omg they are really niceeeee(((= i love my chair and table=D joined the bandits for refreshments and i think the food they catered this year was not bad hehh, or maybe i was just too hungry larh haha. watched the band performance after changing out the damn thick blazer and i think cgssb is doing really well! yayyness(= and hahaha i didnt know we took over the chinese drums part from dance. was so shocked to see keziah and mandy and all on the chinese drums hehh, but goodjob anyway!=D lunched at tiong with heng and lw, heard alot abt nj stuff hahaha, quite interesting actually. well its the company i would say((=

clique`o7!=DKEZIAHSEOWJIEYIII(((=
so unyellow+blueish=S
MRSCHUAAAAAA!=DDDD
frenchhorns`o8!
2c2ers`o5(=
myfavouritebandmates((=

chionged home at 3+ to meet my cousins at imm with gor hehh. shopped for a while before going back to auntietracy's place for her housewarming. talked and gossiped so much that we didnt even eat until around 9 i think. heard really amusing stuff and was so tickled hahaha. OHH. and then we had to eat outside to avoid seeing auntietracy's neighbour who was a totally _____ [*ROLLSEYESHARD*] gor saw her weeks back when he went to visit and she was trying to brainwash gor about some stupid stuff and kept saying how good her daughter is lalala. and the most classic thing she said was,"huhh you were from hwachong? aiyoh it is such a bad sch!" OMG gor was so pissed i swear he would have bashed her up if she wasnt an auntie tsk!=S then i was so horrified when she walked over to me and pulled me to ask me about my sch and stuff wahpiang! and she was so enthusiatic about introducing a guy to me or sth like that i was like WTH=/ she was like weird, like really odd and obviously not in the right state of mind dang. alright, enough abt her. well apart frm that, it was really fun at auntietracy's new place, quite cool i would say(((=
hahahaha oh we played the new version og highsch anthem today during morning assembly and guess what. the highsch people were like clapping away when we finished=_= like whathe hahah, obviously it wasnt meant to be a performance larh. was quite funny larh. so i heard it was a better and grand-er version so i guess its good?! hahaha kudos to mrleng!=D

2008-07-27T20:55:00.002+08:00

im supposed to be throwing pictures and sharing all the joy and fun i had yesterday. but tmr will be a busybusy day with tests tests and morning assembly(!!!) mehhh. shall update more tomorrow i guess. mehhhh.

2008-07-25T20:47:00.002+08:00

WHEEE. today is a coldcold day hahaha. right tt was random=_=
so yupp, halfday today and lessons were bascially rather slack and they passed really fast hehh(= band pract after that and it was very enjoyable though i was trying hard not to fall asleep. OHH, reminds me cindy was like,"i was reading your blog... i get very happy when i see my name in your posts..." hahaha what a random comment=P but since she said it, CINDYCINDYCINDYCINDYYYY<33333
hahahah right back to band pract. saturdaynightfever-ed for the two hours, with lots of jokes and niaos in between hahaah. i think mrleng can be really nice and funny when he doesnt lose his patience and gets pissed off. and he totally niaoed chai abt her heavily-accented chinese and the german girl thing omg!=S hahaha we were betting if it was sean who told him hahaha, quite amused. then he niaoed nutcase abt her love for softtoys which was so untrue hehh. so yes, apart from targetting the usual yaze and highsch boys, he decided to niao the horns all of a sudden wth hahaha. heng irene and i didnt kena hehh=P
sectionshopping for farewell presents at marina after pract. met the frisbee team on the way out of school, only to realise they were taking the same bus as us, just tt they were heading to cine. what a busride honestly. had people whom i dont even know going, "ehh who is cheeshan, lily wants to talk to you" and of course, getting weird stares frm the horns and the frisbee people=/ seriosuly lilyyyy, hahahaha. and her friend actually asked chai, "which one is cheeshan arhh" right in front of my face=_= just because lily loves me more wth hahaha, its abosolutely lame. mehh hahaha, but yupp, shopping trip was really fruitful because we managed to get their presents and indulge in good food at cafecartel! HAHH, speaking of which. question of the day: what is one of the common examples of cartel in Singapore? eliseus: cafecartel=_= ohhhhmyyy, i swear that was the the funniest thing i heard today during lessons hahaah. okay back to the point. so after we finished shopping, we walked ard marina in an attempt to help chai find a skirt for farewell hhahaah. it was so funnny larh, she tried on like afew, and her comments were like, "this is too short", "i cannot walk in this", "can i not wear a skirt" hahahaah its so hilarious hehh=PP so yepp, today was a rather happy day!=DDD
and ofcourse, tmr will be an even better one. plus i just heard more cousins will be coming over tmr=D doubleyayyness, please come soon tmr!=P

2008-07-24T20:25:00.002+08:00

this week shld be one of the best i had so far[this year of course]((= well yes obviously i forsee tmr and weekends to be great, which i highly think they will be!=DD
halfday tmr wheeee. and then there'll be band and we'll be off to shop for farewell presents(= yayy retailtherapy, though not for myself, simply rocks. upon recalling the previous shopping trip with irene and chai, i think tmr will be really fun and entertanining. plus theres an addition of nutcase, hahahah((=
saturday is going to be =DDDDDDDD so yayy to crescent! hahaha, so speechday yes, something i've been going on and on abt on i think=P welll, you must understand how much i miss crescent and classes of 2oo7! and cgssb too of course(= and so i heard theres learningfest or artsfest or maybe its just AAD after speechday hahaha. time to roam around the sch and buy goodfood! call it sinful indulgence, but whatever mehhh=P ohh and ive yet to confirm any plans after speechday, maybe theres class gathering, maybe bandclique wants to do some catching up, ohwell, anything is fine i guess, afterall its all about friends and fun!=DD arhh speaking of which, i havent checked the reporting time and starting time of speechday hahaha. i shall ask panhuixian later(= then theres xiaogu's housewarming at night(= heard cousins came down from msia and so i predict that its going to be another talking-laughing session hehh=D
and then i realise lecttests are all coming up starting next monday, WOW=_= so i have, techinically speaking 1.5-2days to study for physics. yes physics, in a desperate attempt to salvage my physics grade, i.must.pia. hahahah, oh reminds me. i wonder when the resultslip is going to reach my letterbox. whats with snailmail anyway, totally daoing the fact that hc is a futuresch hahahah. but quite interesting i reckon hahaha.
alright, tts all for today. the next post will confirmguaranteepluschop be full of pictures and pictures hehh(=

2008-07-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

today was not a bad day(=
no morning assembly this morn, hehh yayy because dont need to play college anthem hahahah, i always forget a bar mehhh=/ so it was pouring and all, brrrr hahaha, what a nice weather to cuddle under my blanket and sleep in but too bad its a schoolday=/
lessons went by real fast today, or so i thought, which was good actually. hehh then there was banddddd. okay, no pract technically speaking since we listened to the highsch band exchange. andand the overseas band was like WOWWW. as compared to them, highsch band sounded rather weak. but that was partly because the ratio of their no. of people to highsch's was like 3:1 hahahah. nevertheless, had a great time listening to good music and crapping with the banders((= dragged our bags all the way back to college after the session because we were told to memorise highsch anthem hahaha. was okay i guess, and we were actually dismissed at 6, then sean and cindy came so it became like after-sectionals-talking/crapping/laughing session hahaha. was rather entertained actually hehh. talked to cindy about crescent band stuff and all our syf choice pieces and times when mrmertens would come down to tell us the story behind his music((= and no, im so not going to playing the opening of dpd anymore because it'll just ruin the reputation of crescenthorns hahaha. one perfect time on stage was good enough hehh=P so yupp, ended up reaching home at 8, just finished studying for physics spa and gp, which i considered not bad an achievement(((=
now i need to start working on promos, lily just reminded me its like 2months' away, which is tantamount to like 8weeks?! dangg. and i just saw this smb msg which says all C1 cca should stop by 7thaug. hahaha, well when luce is on 20thaug, erm quite impossible arh hahaha. but ohwell, i'd rather have bandpracts duh=S

2008-07-21T20:40:00.002+08:00

mehhh, today was such a weird day. and i totally regretted playing squash hahaha, the result of cheng3qiang2-ing=// ohwell, now i feel like an old lady, crackcrack hahaha. dang, a rather bad self amusement=S
i demand swensens from lilyphoahuixian aka my bff aka my fellow chongerrrrr!!! hahahah i want erm.. chickenbakedrice, GIANTearthquake, the got-gradient drink hahaha and manymany more!! yayyyayyayyy=DDD moral of the story: you dont always have to bet with lily to get a treat=PPP hehhh and i want to go back to crescent too!!! omgggg speaking of which missng is leaving on 19thaug which is in less than amonth's time!=((( ohmyyy, she is like one the best tchers in crescent larhh. and OM had been soooooo fun with her around! ohman im so going to miss her=( but i guess we shld be happy for her hahaha, yay 14thdec!=PPP
and i realise as much as im ranting abt the workload im facing and the long hours spent in sch everyday, im not the worst. mmm, hence i shall not complain abt work anymore yupp, what a random thought hehh. like i said ystd, 永远向前路一直都在(((=

/jiayoujiayoujiayoujiayoujiayou gor, dont give up alright(= believe that you'll do well and that things are not as bad as you think(= MUST have confidence kay, i have lots of faith in you! gogogo gorgor!(((=

2008-07-19T23:10:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BRTHDAY LIUBAOBAO!!<33333
hahahah that two noobs had to wake me up frm my nap at like 4+ tsktsk. i was secretly hoping they would go home and sleep and let me sleep too hahaha=P ohwell, but crashing session was damn lame but funnn!!!=DD like eat and eat and eat alot of snacks and sweets hahaha, and as usual pluck my wire frm my room to the living room so they could use my tablet. AND THEY ARE ULTRA LAME LARH. i mean, the ULTIMATE lamers=_= rarrrrr. esp jingyi omg, would have smack her if it isnt her birthday today hahahah. it was so stupid larh, hahaha shant go on abt it. apologies to all lily and my victims, im sorry i have a super boliao friend=S hahahah.
yayy, today is funnnnn. next time we shld crash jingyi's house hahaah, i fear another msn spamming session honestly=PPP
stay lame and funny fellow chonger, you must always be my gao3 xiao4/leng3 partner yayy=DDD
oh yarh! speechday!!!!! double yayynesssss!=DDD i hope i didnt forget the school song lyrics hahaha, may crescent remain in our hearts wheeeee=DDD cant wait seriously, yayyayyay!=DD
spot me hahahaha=PP

2008-07-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

im supposed to be really happy because today is friday. but im feeling lost suddenly, i wonder why.

2008-07-14T21:48:00.003+08:00

GOLDDDDDD<333333333333
OMG im so so sooooo proud of cgssb!!!! yayyness, we broke the vch curse!((= 3cheers for CRESCENT! i havent been cheering with crescent since Os results i think hahaha, and it felt so good to do the crescent cheer with the band!(((= though not very original, its the spirit tt made the difference(= still a long way to go for syf`o9 but it definitely was a great start for this team tt is going to march towards conferencehall next year. they'll do well, they will. because they are cgssbkids(((= and i think postcard is curse=/ but for an alumni member, i was really glad to hear the results ystd. and for all the efforts they've put in over the past few months, im sure they deserved it. JIAYOU CGSSB, FOR ME`o8 AND SYF`o9!<333

2008-07-12T20:23:00.003+08:00

saturday! hahaha, a rather happy day up till now, and of course tts before i start doing tutorials and stuff later on.
i love bright red rubbish bins!=D hahaha, despite all the weird stares i got on my way to the train station hehh=PP hehh yayyyy, after like 1+ month, i got rid of it hahaha=PP but i think its so coool, i want to get one for myself too. or maybe i shldnt have given it away mehhh=PP hahaha ohwells, tt was my morning and it was a really great way to start a day((((=
gems at bugis area after lunching with the rest(= oreo cheesecake hahaha, i realised lots of class went for baking tooooo, like chai/irene's. not a bad experience but looking at the guys+weihan doing it amused me. you wont want to know how they did theirs, it was like.. O.O hahaha, WEIHAN YOU ARE A GIRL! okay, you WERE larh, no more after what you did to your cake=PP xinling said the dogs there looked like carpets=_= then went to bai4bai4 with baobao and all before going home((= yayy, i havent been there for a while, felt quite good i guess, a sense of...peace and security suddenly=)
and NBC is tmr, CRESCENTGIRLS`SCHOOLSYMPHONICBAND!=DDD jiayouajiayoujiayou my dearest kids!!! i'll wake up early to go down and support you girls yayy(= hahaha, im sure they'll do just fine, they are cgssb lehh!((= wheeee, and im going to see lots of people like ahma, yuen, sec4s and mrschuaaaa!!!!! mehhh, she is the best honestly=DD CGSSB FTW!<333
btw gorgor still rocks hahaah. he was telling me about his orientation briefing today and all the girls in his og hahaaha. i was highly amused cos the camp was supp to be for >average-looking people hahaah. then he was like,"i think they never filter the people properly" hahaha, so hilarious larh. then his camp is going to e next monday to friday, and its the overnight kind hehh. he said they have to like wake up at 5am and can only sleep at 2am=_= call this orientation camp siaooo, more like concentration camp hahaha=PP "machiam bmt larhhh" tts what he said. which reminded me of gor mehhh. okay tts out of point, so that was our first conversation(>5mins) after his trip, quite interestingg=))

2008-07-11T22:01:00.003+08:00

friday!=)
today was not bad, esp band!! hahaha. did the farewell video after pract at 7plus and i think the video is really niceeee, yayyy=DDD hehhh.
and gor is the best! he just came back frm taiwan and bought nice food hahaha andand he bought this weirdly-named food for me hahaha.
and he saying something like, "it reads 小妹妹 and i thought of my 妹妹! so i bought lorh(=" hahahah, i was rather amused hehh. he totally rocks hahaha, so cool<33

2008-07-09T22:46:00.002+08:00

band practs make me happy=D
hehh, and it was a good experience being a walking stand hahahah. and chai totally moved my hand like she was adjusting a stand! im rather amused by the fact tt i could actually stay still for erm 2minutes+?! hahaha, interesting((=
and before the rehearsal chubby and sean did alot of stupid stuff as usual hahah, and made us all damn noisy. i think we disturbed many people oops=/ and DEJAVU!!! hahaha, irene and her assumed meaning of it. hahahah, i think i'll hear alot of it during jts on friday hehh=P speaking of which, im going to be so broke after farewell and jts ohnooooo=(((
discussed about farewell stuff and irene came up with sth quite cool i think, but carrying it out will take a while i guess hahaha. kap-ed and heard alot of funny gossips frm them. i think liuzhen has the potential to become an actor, wonder why he didnt join ld hahaha=PP so yupp, today was a better day yayyy(((=

2008-07-07T21:34:00.002+08:00

happy youth day((=
towned with jeanne in the afternoon, yayness. seemed as though i havent seen her in a long while when i just met her a couple of weeks ago during the june holidays=S oh well, talked alot, as usual. was amazing how i could go on and on about life and hear her go on and on abt her school. attempted to get gifts and a new bag, but failed and it pissed me off quite abit cos my anklebone was breaking apart alr bleah=/ decided to shop at taka instead cos fareast seriously had nothing we liked so yeah. walked in the rain, which made us quite happy actually((= left town at 4+ for tiong in search for presents while she went off to meet adel and gang. yeah, so tts about today, sounds lifeless but it was really an important meeting to me=))) oh and i think butterscotch famous amos is nice(((=

as usual, the others shall be kept somewhere else=)